Saturday, March 11th, 2006
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12:39 am
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When you arise in the morning,
Think of what a privilege it is to be alive:
To breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.
[But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ - the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith] Philippians 3:7-9
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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
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3:31 pm
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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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2:41 pm
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The question I always ask myself is why?
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Thursday, January 19th, 2006
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1:29 am - the beauty of His mystery
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Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...
Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for
Now I have a peace
I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for
By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully yours
And I have been redeemed
By you that spoke to me
Now I am spoken for
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Sunday, January 8th, 2006
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6:22 am - raise the dead in me.
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I've lost my appetite.
I can't sleep.
I wonder what may be the cause of this.
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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
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12:37 am - not just a pretty face.
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the love spontaneity on saturdays. after long contemplation of whether or not we should watch a movie or not, cory and i decided to watch shopgirl in the theatre across our apartment.
i think the beauty of indie films is that its practical. its something that can possibly happen in real life instead of the life experiences hollywood fabricates as true or real. this movie isnt about a typical love story, but about a girl struggling in a city to find a human connection. Her fear of loneliness leads her to do things that she knows are stupid. Not only is she trapped in the gloomy realm of contemporary LA, she comes around two guys, complete opposites, to realize she has to choose between the two.
scenario one -
Jeremy and Mirabelle are separated by a hundred million miles of vacuum space. He falls asleep at night in blissful ignorance. She, subtly doped on her prescription, time-travels through the terrain of her unconscious until she is overcome by sleep. He knows only what is right in front of him; she is aware of every incoming sensation that glances obliquely against her soft, fragile core. At this stage of their lives, in true and total fact, the only thing they have in common is a Laundromat.
scenario two -
His interest in Mirabelle comes from the part of him that still believes he can have her without obligation.... He believes that in this affair, what is given back and forth will be exactly even, and that they will both see the benefits they are receiving. But because he picked Mirabelle out by sight alone, he fails to see that her fragility, which he smelled and sensed and is lured by, runs deep in her heart and is part of her nature, and cannot be separated out for him to fuck
i won't spoil the ending for those who wants to see it, but its a eye opening story about what most of us choose to ignore about ourselves. one thing i learned is that we all have different expectations of what we want in a relationship and despite the uncertainty the territory embodies, relationships don't always fit like a glove. it's scary not knowing where a relationship might be heading. and even though the world may seem a lonely place at times, it leads people to find love in unexpected places. places where we least expect it and people we otherwise wouldnt affiliate, to change our lives completely. in reality, i guess its the excitment and uncertainity that drives people closer together, when you know that you have a partner who will be with you every step of the way. one who will protect you and love you just the way you are.
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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10:52 pm
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I can't explain this feeling. I've always wonder what it'll be like to watch your life rewind like a tape, to go back and witness the good times, the bad times, and everything in between. I've thought to myself how lonely college feels despite the fact that I'm on a campus with how many other students who are also pursuing their career goals and dreams. I walk around campus realizing that everyone is living in their own little world of cell phones and ipods. We all want to achieve these dreams we have for ourselves, but in the end, we realize that its not the end of something, but actually the beginning. There will be no end to the bond we have for ourselves and others around us. To replace what once was lost, but to gain more perspective of this growing uncertanity.
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Friday, September 30th, 2005
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12:56 pm
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I wanna see miracles
To see the world change
Wrestled the angel for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And you're raising the dead in me
Twenty-four oceans
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty-four parts
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit,
take me up in arms with You'
I'm not copping out
Not copping out
current music: switchfoot - twenty four
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Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
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11:54 am
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Be thou my vision,
O Lord of my heart;
Nought be all else to me
Save that Thou art
Thou my best thought
by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping
Thy presence my light
Riches I heed not
Nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance
Now and always
Thou and Thou
only first in my heart
High King of heaven,
my treasure Thou art
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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
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5:08 pm
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thank you for the rain :)
“ Be glad, O people of Zion, rejoice in the LORD your God, for he has given you the autumn rains in righteousness. He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before. ”- Joel 2:23
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Sunday, September 18th, 2005
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10:31 pm
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i hope you and i collide.
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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11:20 am
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every morning this week I've managed to wake up to walk to the park, which isn't too far away. I admit it's a great way to start off the day with the beauty of God's creation. You can say that its my dose of exercise ever since I got my wisdom teeth pulled out. I've never realized what a great feeling it is to just sit under a tree, to listen to some good music, and to be thankful for whats been given to me. The best part is you can feel the weather changing. The air is getting a bit colder and the leaves on the trees are slowly changing from the usual green to the various shades of red and gold. I don't think life can get any better than that.
i don't know if I'm constantly feeling moody or sad because people are slowly parting away to their colleges and to those that already left, but I've come to the realization that I'm so incredibly grateful to be able to come home to awesome friends and family. Home will always be home no matter how much I want to crawl into the darkest corners of the world.
embrace the changes that life has to throw at me because life is a journey - and the end of one part is always the beginning of another.
current music: norah jones - what am i to you
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Monday, September 12th, 2005
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9:03 pm
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One of very few occasions to enable my comments again :) but do any of you guys need a gmail account because I actually have 99 invites. Surprisingly, I don't know how I actually have that many to begin with, I guess you can say that I've been blessed with many gmail accounts. I would love to send invites to you guys :)
You can give me your email address and I'll email you the invite.
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(2 comments | comment on this)
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Friday, September 2nd, 2005
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5:44 pm
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oh jenn, i love you :) you win my award for the funniest girl ever.
its rainingfoo d: but yes we're humans with complicated feelings
its rainingfoo d: ya know?
its rainingfoo d: or else how would we think
r0w 33 na: i agree
r0w 33 na: im sure animals dont think like this
r0w 33 na: or else our world would be in such chaos
its rainingfoo d: I KNOW
its rainingfoo d: it'd be like.. drama everywhere
its rainingfoo d: "HOW COULD YOU EAT MY BABY"
its rainingfoo d: "I'M GOING TO STEAL YOUR MAN"
r0w 33 na: hahahahaha
its rainingfoo d: or.. "i'm going to steal your possum"
r0w 33 na: oh my god
its rainingfoo d: or whatever.
r0w 33 na: i didnt think of it like that
r0w 33 na: LOL
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Thursday, September 1st, 2005
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1:10 am
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I love driving at night. There is this sense of comfort when you realize that nobody is on the road, but you. You can listen to your favorite song and watch the traffic lights turn from red to green. What more can you ask for?
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Monday, August 1st, 2005
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9:48 pm
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i want to go to the beach, even though its pitch black right now. i would give up everything to be able to sit and hear the waves crash against the rocks, breathe in the ocean air, feel the sand, i'll do anything to be where You are.
What in this life could mean any more? Could You take me beyond what this life can offer? If I open my heart, will You take me with You.
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Thursday, July 28th, 2005
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3:46 pm
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nothing better than a day when i can sit in my room and listen to the moulin rouge soundtrack. but theres something about solitude that makes everything ok. when all your problems doesnt seem to exist and all you hear is the music. suddenly the world seems like such a perfect place.
its odd how the world is filled with silly love songs.
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Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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5:35 pm
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“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom always to tell the difference.”
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Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
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11:08 am
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another sleepless night. i realize as life hits me with struggle after struggle, im beginning to feel so numb to it. snap out of it rowena. reality is waiting outside the door whether you're ready or not.
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Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
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2:38 pm
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All hands on deck
Don't abandon the ship
You'll never know what it could have been
All hands on deck my ship is sinking
Don't let me go, don't let me drown
A step to the right to your own rhythm
And what comes next is up to you
I need a miracle to save me from this
And I need the angels to all pray for me
I can't believe you
Another day, another worry breaks right through
And indecision bleeds me dry
She's painting pictures I'm not making for her
And she's got a vision without me in mind
I can't believe it
The long walks on Moonlight Beach
The promises you could not keep
They're so contagious, you're so contagious
For all the world we did not see
And all the smiles you gave to me
They're so contagious, so very fake
current music: waking ashland - hands on deck
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